I am not sure what to say, as we’ve already said so much over our years on the Temp. This account is now older than many of the members on the forums and we’ve gone through a lot together. From joining as a teen to the years of moving, abuse, relationships, hardships, and struggles. To more years of progress, growth, and recovery, with more years to come. It’s amazing to think that the only thing that’s been consistent for us, is our love for this community and our love for homebrew. It’s amazing to think that when we started, we didn’t think we’d be in the position where we are now married. Never once thinking that life would go anywhere past the small apartment life would ever change. If you told me that I would be going through multiple surgeries in a month, I would have thought that I couldn’t do that. Yet, this year that happened. What a drastic change in my life to where I have the strength and mental fortitude to work so much harder to improve my life.
When I started this account, it was just a throwaway account with all intentions to piss and moan about not getting the anti-piracy patches that I wanted. I never intended to be involved in the M3 scene nor even the wider DS scene of the time. I didn’t intend on meeting so many amazing people who encouraged me to work harder and learn so much more. It’s still something of a fever dream to realize that I helped with forming the 3DS homebrew scene and that I was so deeply involved in almost every project. That I learned so much and learned to help countless people. I never once thought that’s where this account was heading when I first signed up to bitch about patches. I am happy to say that I didn’t abandon this account and that I didn’t throw my love of homebrew aside. I am happy to say that I have spent 13 years of my life slowly improving my skills and knowledge. That I can look back and say that I’ve contributed more to this community than just the strange, slightly unhinged rambles that I sometimes post.
I can’t say that the past 13 years didn’t have their downs. As mentioned in past blog posts, we went through a lot of abuse from relationships to substances. Which has left us with a lot of scars and a lot of tears shed over the years. It’s also left us in moments where we’ve ragequit, said some terrible things, and done terrible things. I can’t say that I would ever want to do those again but I realize now that there’s only more to learn from them. I’ve had to learn to be honest with people more than anything. Learning to ask for help and express my feelings in ways that weren’t so destructive. Equally, I learn to take better care of myself, putting my needs first. Something we’ve struggled with for so many years has just been learning to care about our own needs and learning to love ourselves first. Despite all of the terrible things, we’ve learned to do just that. Learned to forgive ourselves, learned to love ourselves, and learned to care about our needs too. It sucked to have to go through so much abuse to learn this lesson but I am happy to take something positive out of those experiences because I am still alive and able to keep going.
I am happy to have made 13 years on this site and overjoyed to be sitting writing this blog post. This wasn’t something I ever once thought would happen but I am proud that it has. I’ve lived 1 year longer than I expected myself to live and I am hoping to keep adding years to that once-held estimate of my life.
Lilith art was a commission my friend made for @Fatal Aryia and me. It’s just a cute comfy day and a silly wallpaper for my laptop
When I started this account, it was just a throwaway account with all intentions to piss and moan about not getting the anti-piracy patches that I wanted. I never intended to be involved in the M3 scene nor even the wider DS scene of the time. I didn’t intend on meeting so many amazing people who encouraged me to work harder and learn so much more. It’s still something of a fever dream to realize that I helped with forming the 3DS homebrew scene and that I was so deeply involved in almost every project. That I learned so much and learned to help countless people. I never once thought that’s where this account was heading when I first signed up to bitch about patches. I am happy to say that I didn’t abandon this account and that I didn’t throw my love of homebrew aside. I am happy to say that I have spent 13 years of my life slowly improving my skills and knowledge. That I can look back and say that I’ve contributed more to this community than just the strange, slightly unhinged rambles that I sometimes post.
I can’t say that the past 13 years didn’t have their downs. As mentioned in past blog posts, we went through a lot of abuse from relationships to substances. Which has left us with a lot of scars and a lot of tears shed over the years. It’s also left us in moments where we’ve ragequit, said some terrible things, and done terrible things. I can’t say that I would ever want to do those again but I realize now that there’s only more to learn from them. I’ve had to learn to be honest with people more than anything. Learning to ask for help and express my feelings in ways that weren’t so destructive. Equally, I learn to take better care of myself, putting my needs first. Something we’ve struggled with for so many years has just been learning to care about our own needs and learning to love ourselves first. Despite all of the terrible things, we’ve learned to do just that. Learned to forgive ourselves, learned to love ourselves, and learned to care about our needs too. It sucked to have to go through so much abuse to learn this lesson but I am happy to take something positive out of those experiences because I am still alive and able to keep going.
I am happy to have made 13 years on this site and overjoyed to be sitting writing this blog post. This wasn’t something I ever once thought would happen but I am proud that it has. I’ve lived 1 year longer than I expected myself to live and I am hoping to keep adding years to that once-held estimate of my life.
Lilith art was a commission my friend made for @Fatal Aryia and me. It’s just a cute comfy day and a silly wallpaper for my laptop
